Yeah, three month delay there, no big deal. ¬_¬

So, what happened to the Taylor kid? Who cares? No one? Okay, well, even though no one cares, he's gone for all I care. He hasn't talked to me at all for 3 months. Never replied to my messages and found himself a girl. So fuck him.

Who do I have on the stove now? Some guy that works at UPS with. John would be his name. Long red hair and *gasp* blue eyes? I may be mistaken though so don't hold me to it. I'm not too sure about him. I've been staring and oogling him for 6 months and he hasn't called me out on it yet. I've been pretty damn obvious too. However, one day not long ago on the shuttle, I saw him looking at me, so I looked and he turned away real quick and obvious like. So I think nothing of it and go back to my buisness, and catch him again. So when we get off the shuttle (since we get off at the same stop) I get off first. I'm a good 30 feet away when *zoom!* he's right next to me. So I walk a bit fast and get to the door and he's right there behind me. Like less than a foot away, so close that he kicks the back of my shoe walking in the door. So I go on and say nothing and he goes on and says nothing. When I drive over to his area from mine to unload boxes, he talks to me. He even goes out of his way to do so. He's hardly ever spoken to me before! The only thing he's ever said was "What did you do that for?" in referance to something kinda' of n00bish that I did, but I didn't work over there so I didnt know. And, he didn't even say it, actually, he just mouthed the words.
This time though, he spoke. He was like "What are you doing here today?" And I was like "I've got some boxes I need to put on a belt" and he was like "Oh, wel we aren't using those *points*, you can use them." and then his supervisor shows up and he walks over to him and tells the supervisor and the sup is like "Yeah, just use those belts" and I'm like "Okay."
So, I don't really know what to think there.
Since then I've been kind of staring at him very blatantly. He still hasn't said a word about it. I followed him onto the bus this morning because well... I kinda' like him so... yeah. Anyway, I sit pretty much next to him and just observe. Doesn't really look at me much or anything. Only thing odd was the Harry Potter book he had from the public library. That would mean that he (being around 18 or so) read Harry Potter, and goes to the library. That doesn't really mean anything though. He doesn't have a car however, and I'm not sure how he gets to work. He always arrives alone, but he leaves with a friend because said friend takes him home. So, I don't know. I'll keep watching though. Obviously. He need to shave too... he'd look a lot better without the fuzz-stache.
All in all, none of it means a damn thing though, because I will continue to gather "evidence" and speak about said evidence in a vain attempt to justify my liking of him and my yearning that he indeed be gay and or like me back at least. In the end, I know he won't and that I, upon getting my hopes up will be left feeling sad again. Tis the way of things it would seem.

Somewhat in that vain, I'm walking all the way out of work every other day. It's about a mile plus change from where I work to the front gaurd shack. Yes, UPS is that big. And, it will be getting bigger in the very near future. Scarey thought. So yeah, I'm trying to lose weight. Starting out slow, trying to get into the habit of doing something everyday, then I'll just add to it. I'm not a fatass, I'm just tired of feeling like it, so I'm doing something about it. Hopefully I see some results... Yeah I doubt that too...

I am also contemplating buying another Computer. I need a new one and would like one with XP... but that leaves me very limited in my choices. As in I only have one choice... Any machine with Vista, I would have to customize to a point where it would cost an outrageous sum of money. I could spring for an Alienware, but I like my arms and legs where they are.

If you didn't get that joke, your a retard and I hope you die.

If you can't tell that I'm feeling rather bitter, cynical, sarcasitc, sad, lonely, and just plain mean right now... the above also applies to you.

Have a nice fucking day.