Im dusting off the old web journal here for cause I need a place to just say stuff. This is a pretty secluded part of the WWW so I dont mind who by random chance happens to pass by and read.
I'll start off mentioning that, yes its been a little over a month since my last post, and that yes I did say I wasnt going to wait that long, but what can I say, Ive been busy.

Now comes the mucho-ness.
Ive fallen for someone; a really nice sweet guy. He really brings out the best in me. Ive gotten motivated to get up off my ass and work out instead of sitting here all damn day. Im going to start looking for a job, and Im going to start driving. I already has all the paper work, but I dont have the knowledge to operate the type of car I will be getting. So I need to training if you will. I need it soon though, I cant relly on my freinds to drive me Im sorry to say. But, this comes from a very bad experience. I wont say much, I'll just say enough to lay out the plot so to say. Aaron, the guy that I like, its...a fragile kinda of person. He's had it rough. I told him that we would meet up and my freind said she would drive us. Well, my freinds mom wouldnt let her. Being the stuck up idealistic bitch she is, she said she didnt want her daughter to "get in the middle of anything". Now, I take great offense to that. Thats like saying Im not a decent enough person to not fuck in the backseat while shes driving. Now that pissed me off. Well...Aaron took it to mean the worst. That I didnt want to see him. I guess he had had so much that was too good to be true, that he figured I was just another one of those, and that he was just going to end up hurt again. And, Aaron, if you read this baby, Im sorry, Im just saying what I gathered from your messages.
Anyways, I ended up spending the next 4 hours late at night until early in the morning trying to convince him not to kill himself, and that I really did care about him. Thank god, I got through to him in time. My freind Vanessa helped me out through the whole thing, so props to her. Right now, he's doing okay as far as I know, and Im working on trying to see him really soon. 

On a lighter note, I finally finished my lightsaber from shop class. All the wiring is done, all the paint and clear coat is on, and it looks mighty fine. We've even got it entered in the state fair. Its totaly 100% scratch built. Made from solid steel. Its my current masterpeice thats for sure.
I also bought three more force FX sabers. I got the massive 7 foot double bladed Darth Maul saber and I got Anakin's blue lightsaber from episode 2, and Luke's from The Empire Strikes Back. The maul saber is awsome, but the 2 gems of my collection are the Anakin and the Luke. Both of them have been out of production for quite some time. The Anakin is the very first FX saber ever made back in 2002. Its still in great shape. The older sabers used EL strip instead of LED's so theyre not as bright, and the sounds isnt very loud either. The Luke was newer, so it used LED's. It was much brighter and louder, but still not on par with the new ones. The handle is beautiful though. It has to be on of the most acurate and well blanced of the set so far.

Well, I feel a little bit better having said all that, so I'll be heading back into the unknown for a bit. I'll return soon for another post.
Adios.